Tuesday, May 19, 2009

self imposed

I have a lot of expectations in people..... I believe in equality not just gender but in all ways. Thats why I always self impose unspoken rules in people or friends. If I can do something, you can too.....maybe not better but you can.....lol....

That being said, I came upon a realisation that this trait in me probably is the cause of my many frustrations........

I probably would have to succumb to the notion that not everyone is logical, has the initiative, behaves in public etc which in black and white looks really silly. I mean everybody is different. I don't need to be a rocket scientist to figure that out. But what I probably mean is that I lack the grace to be accepting towards people who are not in sync with me

Recent case study
Friend A borrowed money from me. Said he will pay me back. Time flew. No response from Friend A. Asked Friend A. Friend A said no money but paid me a little. Time flew. No response again. Me pissed off to the point of no return!

Its's not about the money that I am pissed off about. Its the blaardy lack of social courtesy that is pissing me off. Firstly, if you can't pay. Man up and tell me. Please do not make me go in circles like my time is not of any value. Don't blaardy take me for granted and sweep the whole thing under the rug.

This is where the self imposed quality in me plays into the scenario
In my mind I would run scenarios like say if I am Friend A. I would be in the utmost gratitude to the person who lended me the money. I would try my darndest (lest stealing/robbing) to pay my FRIEND. And if I can't, I will let my friend know that I have some difficulty so as to reassure him that I am not taking him for granted......

Friend if u can't man up, could you at least pretend to be grateful?

Isn't this basic courtesy. I just can't fathom the actions of some people.....AND that my friends is probably why I get frustrated so easily.....