Saturday, July 29, 2006

Big Brother

Now this is my daily fix.......Gosh I am a sucker for reality TV and thank God for them......lol.....It is already the seventh season of Big Brother and it is the all stars season.....Imagine Survivor in a bungalow with 100x more vulgar, 100x more bitchy, 100x more dirty...actually its not that bad, I wonder why it is banned in Singapore cos it is really successful in the US and they have like UK and Australia versions.....what gives?

Friday, July 28, 2006

The road less travelled

indeed dental school is the road less travelled.....people who are on it are really mad ass people.....imagine staying in school from 8 am to 5 pm....with a measly one hour lunch break and after 5pm it is not really a written rule to stay back in the lab but you kinda have to cos you have to do shitloads of work.....calling your patients for the next day, prepare all the necessary equipment for the next few patients, doing really what I feel frivalous stuff.....imagine spending about 3 hours doing a diagnostic wax up of several teeth and have it not looked even though you have to prepare for it...... etc....blah.....so if you are lucky or good..you can leave at say 5.30pm? If not you can stay up till 12 in the midnight. However we are suppose to leave the lab at 7pm....if you get caught, the whole class prolly would be banned from the lab. just like how our seniors got banned a year back. School is a bunch of contradictions and a big paradox....

gosh...its so weary....well for you all who do not understand or get the above paragraph, dont be to upset cos it is not really that easy to empathise with dental students.....not that dental students are really being haughty or anything.....it is just so difficult to explain and tiring to rehash it.....when people ask me how is school? I always give a sheepish ok cos its not ok and I don't want to talk about it.....

I really dont want to come across like I need to be pitied.....cos I don't need to be but I hate school.....I hate it with a passion....never once I hated someone or something.....never in my life.............I hate the high stress environment every single minute, I hate the things I am doing now, I hate the fact that my graduation cannot be controlled by my own hands, I hate the "indepedent" learning aspect of school, I hate the competency test system, I hate that my results are dependent on whether the doctors are in a good mood or are they are in their menopausal moods, I hate the fact that I am the lowest lifeform in school. ditto

I feel relieved already.....however there is a glimmer of hope.....attended prof Hsu lecture about dental care for the terminally ill and throughout the lecture I felt so heavy burdened and the video is the beginnning just wrecked me....it was like watching a sappy hollywood movie but this time it was for real....it brought me memories of my late maternal grandmother who suffered a lot before she went back to the Lord....though she was not really considered a terminally ill patient but it was a rough period of time and I had no idea how I was reminded of that period during the lecture....

Prof Hsu is a good person...though he is slightly controversial he earned my respect today and the whole lecture just made me see the world in a different light.....that there are people who are worse of than me and if they can live a happy life, I can too.....you do not need to be a christian to know that and moreover I have God by my side.....all things will turn out good for the glory of God

Sunday, July 23, 2006

L-O-S-T

chance upon this mind map ....listing out connections of the main characters in LOST......perfect for LOST junkies out there....some of the theories and speculations are just creepy

Saturday, July 22, 2006

nostalgia

the trip to sentosa for the bbq camp for the year 1s was kinda fun cos we are sort of at the top of the hierachy now....hehe...pretty big shots eh.....at least for me I was kinda intimidated by the year 4s when I was in year 1s.....they seemed unapproachable and i took a little bit of ragging from them....now I know how they feel....like a sense of power.... haha.... But of course I did not really play the grim reaper nor did I play the angel.....

spotted a year 1 from SAJC called Cara......and to derek...pls tell your friend that I found someone who took 3 As and got into dentistry...... Saints are a dying breed in dentistry.....heh....

Gayle should still be in singapore idol.......singaporeans go for impressions and poseurish moves rather than vocal abilities....

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

a big pathetic joke

I always feel happy for people who find their niche in society, students who enjoy studying their favourite subjects.....I can't say the very same thing for me....today I just felt really low.....not that I don't every morning.....but today walking into the clinics made me realised what the hell am I doing here....and I just could not come up with an answer....this shows how pathetic I am.......conforming in this sick twisted faculty whose underhand dealings are not exposed...I am just tired....though its only a year but it seems like forever.....

God please show me another path......I seriously can't see myself as a dentist full time.........but if it is Your will then let it be unto me..........

Monday, July 10, 2006

nuff said......hehe

my first time witnessing Italy winning the World Cup.....their last win was 1982....when I was still in the cot in Thomson Hospital

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Forza Italia!

One week of school and I am already drained, sick, disgusted in many ways....puke....Went back to school on saturday and coincidentally admin day was being held for the freshies this year and it does bring back nostalgia but I really pity those people who are coming in........you won't know what you signed up for until you have gone through it......a little too little too late....School sucks period! the only people with msn nicks like that are only dental students.....I just can't believe I went through 3 years of such bullcrap......puke again

Anyway really am anticipating to watch the world cup finals later on and as always for the past 10 years I will be supporting Italy and this is prolly the best Italian team I have seen. And of course me being half Italian.........

Friday, July 07, 2006

Ryan Star - Iris (Rockstar Supernova)

this TV show is apparently really big in the states....its like american idol rock version where the has been rock band is in search for a new lead singer....last season was for INXS....this season is for Supernova.....But it is edgier than american idol though.......just caught it on cable.....haha....this must be my favourite version of Iris....really good....not Ronan Keating haha...