Wednesday, May 31, 2006

singapore idol

it has been a while since I have blogged......GSS has already started and I am 1 week to a well deserved break.......things are looking good.....well my miserable life in dentistry is still the same and stagnant and I am truly pretty nonchalant about it and hopefully that will not stress me out further..

application for student exchange programme has started and it did remind me of the great time I had in UNC........ if I had to go for only one student exchange, I was glad I went to North Carolina....... it's a beautiful place with beautiful people............ and gosh I really missed that place a lot.

singapore idol was really disastrous.....never will it meet up to their other counterparts.......only Jonathan was good enough.....blah

Thursday, May 25, 2006

staying back or moving forward

it seems like the goal for a typical dental student is to graduate within 4 years.......and everyone seems to be striving towards that goal....I am not an exception of course.....

Really really hate the school system of competencies......firstly it is a flawed system and secondly it makes people on tenterhooks and lastly it doesn't serve its purpose......Failed my complex perio and puts another dent on my ego and my goal......

today i went to cell group with a heavy heart and a splitting headache.....To be honest I wasn't really paying much attention even though I was trying hard to.....the friends in my cell group all appear so happy and yet I am a miserable prick, so #@##$ miserable. Why? The answer seems so clear but I just do not know where to start......School is even more miserable than the times when I am serving NS.........

I feel like I am a dormant volcano....just waiting to erupt.....Deep down inside I am filled with so much anger, rage and resentment...(towards the school).......I told robin if I am not bounded by my faith not too spew vulgarities, I would have punctuate every single sentence with the F bomb already....a matter of fact I had....in my mind..... I know it is unhealthy but I just cannot stop it cos I really really detest the school....this is the most miserable time of my life yet......

so long for now cos spending another second thinking about school just adds the lava in my volcano..........

I am not going to quit
and God please save me .......... for I am dying.....dying inside.....exasperated...

PS: this is what happen when you do not follow your dreams and carve out an ambition when you are young.............I made a mistake and it seems like a hefty price...

Monday, May 22, 2006

i need a break

desperately.....I am already so tired and drained......I need that 3 weekS!!!!!!

SOS!!!

Saturday, May 20, 2006

diana

this entry took a while but it will be solely dedicated to my ex classmate Diana.....

my first impression of Diana
she was in the same group as me in the boot camp (I refuse to call that an orientation camp) - Void........we were the most slackgroup in that camp......coming last for evey single competition but still had a great time......She always had a constant smile on her face during year1 and year2....a really fun loving girl..

Diana is and will always be good in her hands, her art....you can visit her blog and be impressed by her art sketches and her comic strips....."I miss Mei Ling!" - That was what I told her when she scrapped her old comic strip over her pet devil.

http://meandmypetdevil.com/

On the day of her farewell "party", I asked her "Are you really unhappy?" She said she really was....and looking back I can really see the slight change of her demeanour...from the diana in yr1 to the diana in the incoming yr4 period........

By the way, I haven't mention that the reason of this entry is because Diana has decided to quit doing dentistry for greener pastures in australia.........A lot of people think that it is really waste but I do feel really happy for her.......nobody outside the world will understand how dental students in Singapore feel throughout the 4 year course...I am not being a martyr...But it is the hard and honest truth....To understand that you have to experience it.....

I am extremely unhappy at this place too and I can assure you at least more than half in my class do feel the same way......If we do follow our passion and dreams, Singapore will be without dentists........

Saturday, May 13, 2006

final 4

well.....survivor is coming to an end......it is between Cirie, Terry, Aras and Danielle....and I have decided to do a little speculation blog entry cos everyone is not free to go out!

Last episode ended on a 2-2 vote for Cirie and Danielle and they have to fight it out in a fire building challenge (see below)

We can see Cirie's fire burning like crazy as compared to Danielle and simply for this fact, I would say Cirie would lose this challenge.....(i mean which tv producers are so stupid to put this blatant clip in the trailer).....obviously it is a red herring......

Thus making Terry Aras and Danielle in the final 3

The last immunity will definitely be close between Aras and Terry and I would give say Aras wins again because of the clear misdirection in the trailer showing him slipping.....

Aras will then vote off Terry because of his ego or Danielle being an easier opponent to beat in the final 2.

And Aras will be the sole survivor......

Sunday, May 07, 2006

poseidon

Alright, I know the whole world is wanting to watch Mission Impossible 3.....the crazy overhyped movie with the theme song ringing in my ears like tinnitus.......I really dont like the MI franchise except the first one......It went from an intelligent spy movie to a really cheesy action sequel and from the looks of the 3rd one....it seems like Tom Cruise is morphing into Steven Seagal....meaning the crazy super action hero......

I have this sudden urge to watch Poseidon.....I read that it is a remake of an Oscar winning movie in the 70s.......and I really like a big ensemble rather than a one man show ala Mission Impossible (even though Philip Seymour Hoffman and Jonathan Rhys Meyer are in the show)

Posiedon has Kurt Russell(many movies), Josh Lucas(Stealth), Emmy Rossum(The Phantom Of The Opera), Richard Dreyfuss(Mr Holland's Opus), Jacinda Barrett(Ladder 49), Mike Vogel(The Texas Chainsaw Massacre)........though they are not exactly of the popularity of Tom Cruise, I am still more keen in watching..... MI 2 killed the franchise for me.....

a & e

terrible terrible week 4 of school......so many crazy things happened.......one session ended up with perio, os and rp disciplines made me so exhausted in the middle of the week.....followed by an incident report the next day when my patient was suspected in aspirating a broken bit of an instrument....all the crazy procedures left me drained....calls from prof jen neo, dr willy chang, mdm ek, nurse pwa, writing reports after reports, accompanying patient to A & E......which is so ironic.....the speed in A & E was as slow as a tortoise that day.......Thank God my patient is fine with it.......

anyway the week will end with me being water baptised....haha...really looking forward to it and really rise up to another level with my walk with God......my baptism name is Amos...hee hee...but I am sticking with Kenneth.....

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

what would I do without the existence of public holidays?

Thank God for public hols....labour day and the upcoming vesak day.....Yippee!
I am into my 4 week of term....and we are almost halfway through the term.....it is scary that time can travel like a speeding bullet meaning we have lesser time to finish our requirements but on the other hand.....I want to just graduate asap.....cos dental school is just wearing me thin.....

This past week, the labs were invaded by people taking the manual dexterity test as well as ppl coming in for their admission interview.......those were the days...I remembered I had to go to the medicine side for my interview sitting opposite 3 professors.....including ours truly Jennifer Neo..........what did I exactly do that caught their attention.....I suck terribly at art and craft.....my A level results are not exactly phenomenal compared to my classmates previously from RJC, HCJC, VJC etc....... Why Why Why???

Recently I have been using this phrase....You are either damn lucky or damn sway to get into dentistry......34 out of 300 ppl is no joke.....sometimes I do feel honored but I seriously do not understand why I was chosen until I finally decided that it is God's plan for me to be here.......mistake or not mistake.... I am pretty certain I am in the faculty for a reason....and I just have to suck it up for this final year.....

To God be the glory.....

Monday, May 01, 2006

ok...the below pictures are taken without permission from Cheryl's blog......haha...so sue me...

in burger king with ping waiting for a table in acid bar....boy that place is really popular...

on the other side of the table, erni with her newly rebonded hair and cheryl deciding whether to cut her hair

at the end of the day where derek came to join us...photo was taken beside some guy puking his guts out....